My First Post

April 13, 2011

I have been thinking of creating a place like my thoughts and dreams and emotions would be banked, but I just could not find a place quiet enough to blog then. Not until I finally decided to create this blog site. It's just so timely that at this point of my life, there's a lot in me that I wanna share about.

Well, the reason why I created this blog is not just to write, but somehow, in my thoughts, that someday, this would be a perfect place to look back where I was on my first quarter of my life. One day, I would be laughing at my awkwardness, shallowness and being so sentimental fool that I just could not resist feeling at this very moment.

I dont know but during the times that I am at the peak of my emotion, my head is just so driven that it can create a lot of words more than I can ever imagine. I just get so preoccupied that I believe putting them into words is the only way to have some peace of mind.

So how am I feeling today? Honestly, I am inlove. I am so much inlove with this one person who obliviously got no idea how I am feeling. Okay, I don't wanna narrate who he is, and how it goes. I just knew it from myself that this feeling is not so usual. I know that I have been praying that I would feel this way again after all the hearbreaks that I have been through before, but I never thought that unrequited love is so much harder that I seem to conquer a heartache. It just sucks!

How can being so inlove be a wonderful feeling? How could I make it right? Now I am blankly thinking. I am staring with my mind thinking of him. So this blog is not actually created because of me, but because of this feeling I just could not release to him.

Okay, one day.... when I got no more blood in my veins, voice in my throat, I hope he will find this. A place where everything is written but unsaid. Yes, one day, someday!