What A Journey It has Been...

I was approached by someone who was not so close to me and told me that he has been reading my blogs. He told me that I was indeed been a great influence to other people's lives without me knowing it. I then started to download a "fidjeet", to somehow track my blog readers and I was shocked to see that I have a lot of readers from all over the country of different places. I have no idea how accurate it was, but then I was just got so flattered that those thoughts of mine matter to some people.

Well, i have been blogging for almost 8 years already. However, different blogsites emerged that I keep on hopping from one site to another.

At this moment, I intentionally created this page to rant and rant about everything without restrictions but with limitations. The most common thing that I rant about is that, "I'm tired! and Tired! and tired! over and over! i began to ask, "Where did I get that stupid idea of being a nurse?" Ooppps, sorry for the word. ha-ha

Then, I realized that no matter how I try to whisper it softly (my rants),,, God hears me. How??!

Okay this.... I believe I have this supernatural power to talk to God and I am so much spoiled by Him. (walang kokontra, paniniwala ko yun. At naniniwala akong malakas ako kay God, whatever u say, skeptics!)

When I was a kindergarten, I was asked by my teacher, "What would you like to be when u grow up?"
On stage, I stood up and said, "When I grow up, I want to be a nurse!"

Inocentes de Pobres ang drama.... I was 5 years old here. I don't know what I was saying about, but I was praying that I would become a nurse. What a wrong wish! I should have prayed to become a millionaire, eh di sana narinig na agad ni God. But proudly, I was a witty kid before. (pers honor daw ako nito). That was before, okay, everything is changing, so does my neurons!

Then fastforward..tentenenen! I am now a full-pledged, always tired and complaining "NURSE".
After I graduated, I could not wait any longer for my license, and so I worked as a korean teacher for a month. Then I prayed, "Lord sana magkawork na agad ako para may pera nako agad." It was a magical feeling that I got hired so fast at Han Maum Academy, and I had so much fun! But then, it was just a temporary madness...

When I knew that I passed the boards, I got hired at one of the prestigious hospitals in Manila. Wala na akong pinagpray na ibang hospital kundi dun lang. I don't know why, but I was so stocked with that thought that sa Capitol Medcial Center lang talaga ako. I was claiming it with finality na sa CAPITOL lang ako magwowowrk at wala ng iba. Truly, I got hired....(so fast! galing ni God noh?)

I couldn't ask for more. I had a very nice workplace, very kind boss, super sweet staffmates and a reasonable salary in the Philippines. I even got a bonus of a very cheerful dorm life!

I got these 2 kikay room mates, Wendee, (a workmate from Capitol and Let, a college buddy). We get along a lot! Para lang kami nagbabahay bahayan everyday and there were no dull moments.

However, I don't know why I was still not contented with my life then. I still asked for something that I would not be tired. At first, I planned to go abroad right there and then that even if it broke my heart, I left and resigned from my everdearest workplace. I then again asked God. "Lord, gusto ko po pa rin nmn maging nurse pero gusto ko hindi ako napapagod."

I felt like God was running my life with whatever my heart desired. He made everything happened. After a month, I got hired in a company as a Hotel nurse! Wow, I was really overwhelmed. I told myself that it was a perfect job for me. I would just sit down like a receptionist and still, I am working with my profession.

Tralalala.... 1-2weeks was so perfect! I was just sitting pretty everyday. Until the day I got so much bored. i felt so bobo sitting down, doing nothing and waiting for the time for me to go home... Then again, I said, I wanna quit! I did! i only worked there for only a month... Then I finally became a bum nurse! I know I was a loser but then I knew that I was not happy anymore. I asked God another chance to start over.

Maybe I was just a lucky kid that I got hired at Brent International School to teach little kids. They hired me just because I passed the English Proficiency Exam. There I said, "Promise, d ko na to pakakawalan til I end up to working at the hospital again."

This time, I fell in love with my job. I fell in love with the Korean kids, and the place, and my salary. It was then I started to become more responsible with my savings and my decisions.

All of a sudden, I felt the need for me to go back to the place where I belong- the hospital. It was creepy but then I prayed, "God, ayoko man pong magwork sa hospital na to pero kelangan ko na pong magwork. Please give me this chance to bring back what I lost and I promise, I will not break my contract of 2 years and I will be satisfied."

2 weeks after that prayer, I got hired at DLSUMC! That was the living proof that God resides in my heart no matter what.

I found peace and happiness in this place. It's almost 3 years already and still I am here. Now I believe I have already been overdue with my promise and that I need to take another step forward.

 But wait.... There was one funny prayer that came true. While i was watching the "America's Next Top Model" it suddenly rushed my thought, "Lord, bakit yung ibang tao, magpopose lang nmn sa camera, magpapaganda, and it's like they won a genetic lottery of being lucky to be beautiful and instant rich. D ba ako pwdeng maging ganun?"

Wala lang naman, naisip ko lang. But then, it was so strange that one day I got invited for a photoshoot. damn, para akong matutunaw sa hiya. i can't even smile coz I kept on squirting my face... After the first pictorial, I was invited for a PAID photoshoot. Oh, lumelevel up! So change profession na ba ito? I never thought I would be going through this crazy stuff. I began to wonder, what on earth am i doing with my life?

Oh ha?! Kunwari lang yan confident. ha-ha-ha! Well, I then realized that modeling is not indeed as easy as eating a pie. No it wasn't. maintaining your poise under pressure and under short notice was so DAMN hard and embarrassing. So that was just a taste of a bitter model wannabe. At least i tried, dba? and I made it, kahit papaano.

Hmmmmmm..... As of Today, I believe that God is working on my next prayer. I am crossing my fingers....
I have a time frame. After this next BIG prayer, I am wishing and hoping that I will finally end up my being single life. Of course I wanna be a full pledge-not-complaining-and-never-be-tired to become a loving wife and mother someday. Oh, that's soooo fetch!

Kidding aside, In everything that I have been through, I learned a lot from it. I learned to be contented and happy, patient for my prayers, determined and consistent. And no matter how many times my heart got broken, God never failed me. He was always there no matter what and I believe until the end, He will be. =)