I know that with all the grievances I had before, though I really didn't have a real boyfriend, I have written so much about love that I never knew how it is, not until I found someone who would knock me off my feet, and who made me say yes. No, not yet "I do", but who knows? (winks)
When I decided to let the whole world know that I have given my heart at last for the first time to a person I have never met, and barely knew, they all raised their brows with disbelief. I was bombarded with skepticism that I just wanted to raise my both hands up, and say, "okay, I did not commit a crime. I just did fall inlove. I don't know how, but it just did happen".
It was tough. Long Distance relationships are just so close to impossible, they say. How could I really fall inlove with a complete stranger?
I know how hard it is. But can anybody explain how two people can be so happy despite and inspite of? I just found myself happy one day and waking up, scared to lose that happiness. And that I guess is enough to make me decide that I would not want waking up one day, losing this happiness I never had before.
Okay, too much for those munchiness.. I know I am still struggling hard, though I know that I can never please everybody. I can never let everyone believe that love happens this way.
When I was a younger, I always dreamed of having the most ideal love story I could imagine. That maybe I would meet him at m workplace, he could be my bestfriend, or someone that could bring magic when I see him. But never in my thoughts that he could be someone so distant that I could not touch, nor see with my naked eyes. And that's what make it more interesting, or okay for some people---sad.
I believe that love just happened to me at the right time though. Never too early and never too late. I was thinking what if I just happened to have someone when I was younger? Could it have worked? Or what if I could have it tomorrow? will it ever happen still?
I know I still have a lot of things that I need to know about love. I have never been into it, and that maybe my expectations were too high that makes me stumble from time to time.
I just never thought that I could be like this before. I was never been into stuffs and surprises. I thought it was odd. But I realized that when two people fall inlove, they just suddenly forget the world. And that's magic.
Love knows no rules. When it happens, it happens! No exact time, no definite place. Now my fairytale imaginations just flew away and I never thought that reality could be so much better than those. I know it would never be easy. I may have pain through it, and still I am not perfectly sure that this will last forever, but still I am thankful that God has let me feel love for once, and hopefully until forever (cross-fingers).
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